Maggie watched the bride and her father posing for photographs by the little gate outside the church yard. The bridesmaids clambered out of their car, holding their long midnight- blue dresses rather ineptly to stop them trailing in the puddles. She smiled at them and wished them luck and then stayed waiting by the gate as they all walked towards the church door ready to march down the aisle.
They had been so proud of her when she got her place at college but they had comforted her and stood by her loyally.
'Yes Lucy do come, you know you were Geoff's first true love, don't you? The first cut is the deepest and all that'.
'Please come
Gran, 'I'll feel a lot better if you're there. I am really over him and
everything, it's just that he was my first love and it seems like the end
of something, I feel a bit old'.
Maggie glanced at her beautiful granddaughter who just seemed to radiate youth
and grace. She laughed and took her hand.
' Come on you old fogey, let's go and drink to the bride and groom.'
'Oh Gran I'll just go and see if I left my phone in the car.' Lucy ran off and
soon was walking back with the phone glued to her ear and a brilliant smile on
her face. Maggie's heart sank, what was going on?
The reception was in the grounds of a local hotel by the river. The
moment Maggie and Lucy arrived waiters appeared offering drinks and they
started to mingle among the guests.
'Who were you talking to Lucy? 'Maggie gently probed.
'No-one'. came the curt answer. Maggie felt stung. Her granddaughter had
never spoken to her like that before.
Just then David Oakley came up to her and raised his glass. 'You're looking
very charming, Maggie, here's to your good health'. Maggie chinked her glass
back and smiled at him.
'I expect you've heard about Nicky leaving me,' he continued. 'It was a
terrible shock. I suppose that's the danger when you marry a much younger
woman. I really feel more sorry for Greg. He's only seventeen and adored his
mother. He really resents her now and doesn't even want to see her.'
Fuelled by the champagne, the teacher inside Maggie spoke out. 'You must
encourage him to see her.The adult world is confusing to young people but
it is very important that he knows his mother loves him and that you are
both there for him. These teenage years are very delicate. If he sees that you
have forgiven Nicky and wish her well then he will come through this all the
stronger.'
Too late Maggie saw the hurt look on David Oakley's face.
'I'm sorry I spoke out of turn', she hastily apologized. 'Please forgive
me. It's just that I have seen so many cases where parents separate and the
children take sides. I always tell parents that if they love their children
they should keep their relationship as harmonious as possible. I am
speaking as a teacher not as a parent and of course I don't know what it
feels like to be betrayed like that. It must be awful for you'.
David Oakley's shoulders visibly relaxed and his face cleared. 'You're right
and thank you for that advice. You are the first person who has had the courage
to tell me that. Everyone else treats me like a victim and feels sorry for
me.'
The waiter offered them sausage rolls and mini pizzas and they stood
eating them in companionable silence. Just then Lucy rushed past in tears.
Maggie glanced at David, he took her glass from her and gave her a nod to
follow her granddaughter.
When Maggie caught up with her she took Lucy in her arms and gently sat her
down on one of the plush armchairs. Lucy cried on Maggie's shoulder with
heart wrenching sobs. As she stroked her granddaughter's soft, shiny hair she
breathed in the smell of apple shampoo and thought of the little girl she had
once been. Where had the years gone? How had she grown up so quickly?
'Oh Lucy, when you were a little girl I could make you laugh so easily and a
hug would always make things right. Whatever 's the matter darling?'.
'Oh Gran, you could never understand' sobbed Lucy.' you don't know what passion
is. You just dedicated your life to two old people and my dad'.
Maggie was shocked. Is that how Lucy saw her? What about all the fun they'd
had? The happy years of family parties? Passion wasn't just confined to sex
surely? Maggie had had a few admirers and her parents had encouraged her
to look for someone special, but no man she met had wanted to take on the
whole package of two elderly parents and a single mother and Maggie had thrown
all her passion into her teaching and her family. Part of her thought she
didn't deserve happiness with a man, that romance and exciting relationships
were something that happened to other people. She'd become a grandmother when
she was just forty five and that had seemed enough for her.
Maggie took a deep breath, ‘Is this anything to do with Ellie the owner of the
new café?’ she asked.
Lucy looked up abruptly, ‘How do you know? Who told you? Does Mum know?..
Anyway there's nothing to know now, it's all over before it had even begun.’ She
sounded frightened and looked very young.
Maggie stroked her hair, ‘I'm your grandmother, that's enough people to know.
Now why would a beautiful young girl like you mess around with a married
man?’
‘I haven't done anything wrong, it's him that's married, not me’, Lucy was
defiant.
‘That's the easiest way to clear your conscience my treasure, but anything that
hurts someone else can't be right can it?’ Maggie hugged her tight.
A memory came flooding back to her, bitter-sweet, of a time when the new
doctor, whose wife was expecting twins, had come to visit her parents and
had taken her aside.
‘You must be finding this very hard,' he had said. ‘two old people and a young son
and no man around. Any time you need something let me know, ok.’
She had caught the hidden meaning by the way he looked at her. Oh, the sweet
temptation of a male body that wanted hers, the raw smell of his unshaven skin,
Maggie had felt her legs buckle. Then she had glanced at her parents sitting
side by side in their wheelchairs, their gnarled hands touching, their faces
looking at her with trust and love.
‘Thank you’, she said ‘It was kind of you to come out this evening, but we'll
be fine now, thank you.’
She had shut the front door with a bang and gone back into the bedroom. ‘Come
on let's watch some Comedy Gold, I think there's 'Dad's Army' on now’.
Lucy was watching her. ‘Gran you won't tell mum and dad will you? I think I got
carried away, what with Geoff getting married, I just got too easily flattered
by the attention. I'm so sorry.’
She burst into tears again but just then David Oakley appeared bearing a
tray with three glasses of champagne and some delicious looking savoury quiches.
‘Can I join the party?’ his eyes smiled at them both. ‘There's going to be a live
band soon and I'd love the first dance.’
Lucy stood up and straightened her dress. I'm off to freshen up and then
I'll join you both on the dance floor. The best man looks quite nice doesn't he?’
David Oakley held out his hand to pull Maggie up. She stumbled into his arms
and lay her head on his shoulder. An unfamiliar sensation swept through her.
Something like relief mingled with happiness and a feeling that she was no
longer alone. She knew without any doubt that her parents would have approved
of David.
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